wh0a!...i did n0t expect chinese test s0 easy..
easier than i th0ught..
i may be able t0 pass..
*hurrayx!*..

i am happy s0o0ooo happy that i am crasy...
every0ne is trying t0 change..
t0 f0rget ab0ut the past...
thats g0od....
i n0e itx difficult..
i tried many times...
i wan t0 be heard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bud n0one will....

i wan t0 study..
n0 m0od...
fine...
tml i shall ^c0py!..
x=..i l0ve catss*...
finee..bu ha0 xia0...x=

tml is gina's birthday..
g0nna l0ok f0rward t0 it...
bud...i am g0nna be m0re fatter..
g0nna eat al0t al0t!...

i already b0ught her a present..
budden i still wan t0 buy f0r her smth..
n0 m0re time lerx..
s0mm0re tml exam..
and n0 m0ney..
daddy is sc0lding me f0r taking cash 0utta the bank..
itx myy card nehx!..
s0mm0re i g0t put cash backk nehx..
haishx..nvm...i dun caree!...

s0 afraid that june h0lidays cann0t g0..
daddy is als0 broke...
c0s m0mmie spent s0 much m0ney..
i am g0nna find w0rk in the h0lidays
if i am n0t g0ing 0verseas...)=..
maybe g0 w0rk with sin yee..(=..
at least g0t ppl pei w0...

__x-crasy me-x__
.-.-.-.*happy me*.-.-.-.

o.0...tis is sickk..
i seem t0 be causing all the pr0blems!..
and yuckks..!
x.x...i didn't meant t0 cause it...
ahhhhhhhhhhh*...

i feel s0 stupid...
f0und 0ut that many mcs g0 th0se g0od g0od sch0ol..
and me...o.0...s0me neighb0urh0od sch0ol..
yikes!....^{i wann t0 g0 t0 xinmin..x=}

++((wishin time would turn backk))++

ermmx....mrs ye0 c0me back lerx..
find that itx a blessing....
c0s i can at last manage t0 understand physics!..
x=..

0...i accidentally mistaken that daniel nick and j0hn..
den i happily g0 say happy birthdayx..
s0 pai sehx!

steph and shi han same nick..?!....
w0ahx..
w0 xiang y le....x=

.__end|ess night__.

alxyesterday g0t cr0ss c0untry..
i g0t in 50 plus..
veri lan...x=
aiya...
nth much t0o add lerx..

dens in the aftern0on g0 0ut..
actually is 2/2 0uting..
budden in the end..
s0 little ppl g0..
)=..
sarah..aline..shihan..cw..joohui..me
weiming...evan..j0hn..katat...stephanus..
s0 itx n0t a 2/2 0uting..
budden we have funn nahx..
especially with stephanus and his ^{strawberry ice cream}...and raw eggs
x=...hahax..

taken at mrt..0n the way back h0me..

i am getting t0 0pen up..
and i feel great..
n0t being upset anym0re..
thankx ct and hf..
(=...
dere is s0me0ne dere willing t0 cry f0r me..
& s0mm0re t0day my eyelids all sw0llen..
den s0 ugly...

0 yarx...g0t j0hn and da0 wei..
dey b0th j0ining 0ur class..
r0x!

i think i would do wad ct says...
itx not happening just recently...
it already happen a few months ago..
and i had already cried...i mean like cry for wad...
just forget it...
at least i wun be sad....
letting go is betta since the person did not change at all..
fine..i never tell the person about that...bud who will..
u wan to hurt the person's heart?...
cos i treat the person as a fren...
and i will never hurt a person's heart...
i rather i will be the one hurt..
i am rite now.....badly hurt...
bud she did nothing to pull me up from hell.....
stand aside and treat me like rubbish...
how i wished that she could help me...
or treat me as a fren..
like what i treat her...

bud i am also afraid of frens caring for me...
maybe i have noone to do that to me in the past...

i rather be bad than to be good..
becos being bad u wun get hurt...
being good....the more hurt you will get..
the difficult for it to recover...

i am selfish..
i know that...
bud how come i always get hurt..

i am happier now...
at least she know of my existance..

+...letting it all go...+


ct..hope u will let it go also...*cries*

i finally pour secrets out to ct..
i dun noe why..
itx like she is the first person i trust alot in sec sch life..
thankx alot!
i used to tell secrets to my maid...*left liaox*...
so after sec 1 i never dared to tell secrets to anyone..
+/anti-social\+
not much good frens lor now...
noone could help me

i cried manx...while writing the email..
dammnitx..
tiz sux...
i started being angry..
ended up being upset...

i.dun.dare.to.cry.in.front.of.anyone.else.
i.was.afraid.
afraid.of.being.stupid.
being.scoffed.at.
i.could.trust.noone.
all.dey.could.is.laugh.at.me.
the.mask.on.my.face.hides.all.the.tears.
it.onli.shows.happiness.
joyfulness.
noone.could.see.through.my.mask.
mask.that.made.up.all.of.my.courage.strength.
noone.could.give.me.a.chance.
all.i.need.is.a.chance.
to.free.myself.frm.the.prison.

finee..itx rubbish...STOP READING!...

+=[[i wan to be weak jus like the others..bud i can't...i am afraid of being laughed at]]=+
//+strong+\\

t0day g0t new classmate in 3/2
durin chinese less0n...
dens...the guy ish called j0hn k0h..
hahax..he transferred t0 3/2 fer chinese..
damnn c0ol...
s0mm0re tcher all0w nehx!...
simply l0vee her..
s0 lax~

ermmmx..napfa 2.4km run t0day...
sian man~!
i am s0 embarrassed...
i run 15 mins++..
s0 lan!
aline dey all run 13 mins nehx...
finee...x.x...

i hate herrr al0t manx...
stupidd...mustcombhaveesoguysodensocancombsurvivede...
stupiiddd nahx...
suxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!!!!!
i hate pe0ple wh0 act clever..
especially th0se wh0 dun admit sheezz wr0ng...
even if she n0e is wr0ng..
she w0uld treat it as n0thin liddat....
ka0 ehx..
and c0pies ppl things...
bud dun like ppl t0 c0py hers..
x.x....sickkk0ooo
actsocutecombbascombtardso.......q=...rubbish~...

if xinni reads thiz..she w0uld understand me...

+.......*fa//en dreamz*........+

yesterday went swimmin..
hahax..heng heng never bec0me blackiex...x=

t0day...
ermmx....ermmx...
evan that si bian tai...
g0 0pen aline's de 0p pencil b0x..
weiming als0 see lia0x..
den evan say his e maths will fail...
den keep 0n laughing...
tell t0 sarah..den m0re cute..
x=...she alm0st fall...
den she still c0ntinue t0 laugh...x.x

+]]....fa//en*/eaves...[[+

i b0ught al0t 0f things t0dayx...
i went 0ut wib xinni...
at first the purp0se was t0 buy sp0rts sh0es
and pass the silver jubilee tickets to her de...
budden i never buy sh0es..
at first wan t0 buy sh0es like aline de...
budden 0nly the c0l0ur that aline buy is nice...
den i ask her mahx...
den she dun wan same c0l0ur...
in the end never buy...

budden i b0ught a wallet!...
can cr0ss out an0ther thing in the wishlist!
itx simple de...
cuttee...c0s g0t d0lphin 0n itx..cuttee!
andd cheap too!
v0odo0 d0lls de wallet als0 n0t badd..
budden t0o ex...
next time g0t cash den buy...x=
s0mm0re wallets in the far east als0 n0t bad...
ahhh~!^{ying2! st0p thinkin ab0ut wallets!}

anyway...i saw 0ne nike sh0e veri nice..
fr0m far far see lahx...
budden itx $124...0ver the budget..
s0 g0nna get m0ney frm dad first...

ermmx...i b0ught an0ther cutee wallet in far east..
f0r my sister birthdayx..
hahax..
itx my mel0dy de..
a bit childish f0r teenagers her age..
hahax..

0p was havin 0ffer..
s0 i b0ught a pair 0f pantx..
maro0n c0l0r...(=

s0 n0w...n0 m0ney...
0 yar....xinni went t0 my h0use t0 take tickets...
c0s i f0rget t0 bring the tickets 0ut..x=
den she went int0 the kitchen kena scared by d0ggie..
den she screamm...funny manx!...x=
i am s0 ^evil~

i l0ve the c0de that me and xinni used..(invented by her frenx*
n0w we can talk in fr0nt 0f s0me0ne..
with0ut the pers0n n0eing...
the pers0n w0uld th0ught that we are idi0tx..
hahax...
budden itx the pers0n wh0 is the idi0t...
n0t n0eing we are talking ab0ut he/she...(=
yay!

ermmx...t0dayx ish a neutral day..
0ng katat fed up lerx.
dey say he cann0t c0pe lia0x...
ha0 ke lian w0rhx....
sec 3 life sux..al0t!

den veri xia suay..
no1....c0z yvonne k. and sarah and me all return fr0m lunch
g0ing t0 class f0r physics less0ns mahx..
den suddenly yv0nne g0t a crazy idea...
c0s we have all 0ur hands h0oked t0gether...
she said ^{::lets run all the way to 3/2}
i f0ll0wed her idea and ran to 3/2 when she c0unted t0 3
yv0nne and i dragged sarah in the middle al0ng..
funny...
but....we f0rget that 3/3 g0t higher chinese...
den ran pass that time...
sarah screamed!
xiaaa suayyx*

no2..c0s g0 f0r ment0ring..
den dey g0t fire drill..
bef0re that thiam wei call us pack bags..
blur blur de me..
dens g0t announcement 0n where the fire ish mahx
i wanted t0 explain the last questi0n
budden dey^{the cutee students..x=}keep 0n shhing me....
hahax..funny manx..
dens after ishx like every0ne last minute pack bag den bring d0wn..
like sh0 kiaa suuu
hahax....
den c0me d0wn every0ne never bring bag...
^{*xia suayy nehx!*}
m0st funny ishx wei jinn
thiam wei say wei jin was s0 angry..
c0s wei jin said h0w in the w0rld g0t pe0ple bring bag d0wn when dere ish a fire..
quite right lahx...
den thiam wei keep 0n saying...den damnn funny...
until wei jin cann0t tahan thiam wei..
hahahahaahahaha..
primary 0ne kiddies all sh0 cuteeee~~~ ahhx..
den see dey all h0ld hands when dey walkk...sh0 tian zhen liddat...
w0ahxx..sh0 cutee...i wann t0 pincchh their cheeks...


_{_____]]*n00ne can see thr0ugh my smile....*[[_____}

^*- fragi\e heart -x

t0day p0n the macrichie trail...
budden run 2.4km...
siannx....i think timing about 16 mins plus...
)=...
dens aline ha0 ke lianx...
set and set....
dens very frustrated mahx...
den n0rmal pe0ple will thr0w anger de mahx...
den mr ong sommore...ka0x!
s0mm0re during assembly desiree dunn0 d0 wad..
he men0pause liddat...call her stand..ka0x!...
aiya...dunn0 le lahx...

tiz m0rning a bit dunn0 wad shit...
den dey talk t0 me abit...
ish like suddenly s0 mani v0ices in my head...
den cry n0rx..
evan that ^bastard...laughh at me....
g0nna be buay s0ng wib him....
idi0tic..idi0t!

*))-n0t beside me anym0rex-((*

t0day ermmx...
sch0ol very sianx..
stephanus break his chair
in the physics lab..
funny man!..x=
den ms chang als0 laugh..
all break int0 mani pieces..*t0 me ish mani pieces..*
dens ermmx...laugh n0rx*
ms chang face expressi0n *^{ms chang:::::}0h my g0d dens laugh laugh...*
+plus:::>^{yeahx! no need go cross country trail run...muz go vball training...(=}

____*huann yingg tiann shii*____

ermxx..t0day melissa *k0ng* cried..
dey say ish because s0me people teased her..
ab0ut bentink and her...
last time ishx j0yce cry..n0w ish melissa...
hahax..funny....
c0s bentink t0o...ermmx..u n0e wad i mean..x=
dens weiming said aline never cry...
den maybe aline ^like bentink....hahax..
funny man!

+._______ying²________.+

went swimmin t0dae..
aye..quite sianx...
0nli me and gina..)=
budden n0t bad lahx...
met a ^tik0pek...
and he claims t0 be the li jing mei father..
holland village de "yan yan"
he ishx veri yuckiex...
say me fat ehx!...
i sh0 angry...
at least he sh0uld be skinner den me den can say me mahx..
0wnself as round as a fishball..
fat as a g0rilla
clumsy as a elephant
and ^{thick skinn} like a hipp0
still say me ^FAT!
i slapp u arhx!
he can g0 bec0me sum0 wrestler le lah!
^{attitude......}
and he lives bel0w the bl0ck of kuku h0use..
x.x....sickenin

^{+.dun feel like d0in hw.+}

wah sai ehx!
i wan t0 die of humiliati0n!..
i sh0uld have destr0yed itx!...
my secret!...
my sista n0e itx lerx!
she invade in my privacy!!!
^{idi0tic man!}

luckily itx all l0ng ag0...
^phew*

yeahx!
tiz weeks seems shoo sh0rt!...
c0 s itx g0od friday tml!...
and yesterday we 0nli hab halfday of sch!
^{*lurvee itx sh0o much*}

dens tml wann t0 g0 0ut wib all 2.2 peeps...
bud..stupid weiming cann0t make itx..
evan wib his sickening religi0n..x=...
)x...i wanna g0 0ut tml!...
bud n0 more $$...)=...
dunn0x whether the datee wib huifen and cw is still 0n an0tx...
^{x- *w0 hen kuai le* -x}

woot!...
today got sports dayx....
shoo sianx...
....cried again...x.x.....
aiyax...buuu yaoo kuuu ler lahx....

after sports day come homee.....
changed into proper clothes....
go out wib aline jas sarah...
aline and sarah cutt their hair...
*zhong guo wawa*......cutee nehx......
if sarah go scann the neos we took den i putt here..
i put everywhere....
see the zhong guo wawaa!!!!


+-( stay.strong )-+

ermmx...today go see mommie off....she go backk to usa lerx....dunno why i suddenly cry....maybe i miss her too much and itx like now dun habb so much close fren..i mean i got...budden is not frm amkss de...)=....den itx like jus see her onli...and onli a while den go lerx.....*.*...miss her soo much........

ermmxxx....sat night after blogging i went to jimmy uncle dere eat...300 plus..wib mom fwens...ah fan auntie...zhan yuan's mom and dad...jamie's mom and dad...blahblah...eat until fat fat lerx.....x=

den sunday also go jimmy uncle dere eat dian xinn...den eat fer free..lolx...jimmy uncle treatt norx...x=...go wibb caiyu jie and her bf narx...and aunt...and yaya~.....den blah blahx...den after go shop around bugis....shun bian go pai pai to godd pray mommie be safee blah blahblah...den after separate wib caiyu dey all....den maid also went homee....den left mommie me and gina..at first tot that we would go shopping budden in the end mommie forget that she have a date wibb sharol or whoeva and pan lingling....den after sit cab go chiong to cineleisure.....den found out that sharol auntyy open that buttercup coffee that shop....that veri mah fan shop de...block the corridor de...x=....lolx...den also kena treat by sharol...x=.....sommore quite ex de food dere...x=..den after chiong cab home lerx....den sleep sleep~~

[-pray thatt everyonee wouldd bee happyy-].....*cross my fingers*

wootx!..today nice day...went out wib mommie and sista....and take neoprintx..hahax...at first wan to take those starshots thingy...budden in the end never..den sista get a nice nike shoex....i like it alot alot norx...budden next time i see nicer one den i buy!..x=.....

sec 3 life sux lahx....i onli tot ish onli mee lyke everyone is neglecting me.....realli!....budden did not noe that sarah was feeling like that too...char.t....matt....jasmine also...bud dey seem to have somebody like aline beside dem...yingg2 have none....)=..... *yingg2....woxianggyaojiannqianggxiaaqu*.....

sorry joyce..shooo pai sehx make u do all the history project work and never do anything...)=

mani things happened today....budden all not my business.....haixh...noone wants to tell me wadd happenx...i onli noe bitx and pieces niax....okay!...i swear that i will never be a busybody!...cos even if i wan to noe smth...noone tells me...seems that noone trust me...

*hao xiang ni worx ct~*